Dear has finally read my blog after her persistency in asking about my blog's address. My heart is pounding fast after giving her the url to read my blog... Lots of thinking starting appearing my mind... I guessed I'm too thicked skin, she won't be interested in a person like me...
My heart hurts when I saw dear typed in her blog that she's crying. Dear, I know you are in a terrible state you didn't want to. Nobody wants you to be in that state either and it just happens that you are in this state and everyone does feel helpless @ times. We just need friends around to pull us up and that will bring us back to life. Like you mention that "a kinda strength is gushing up to your head" when you received help from me. I was very happy that I could help you a little even though it's not much that could be of help to you.
If dear is worrying that I might ask you how long you'll be in that situation... pls do not worry a single bit about that. I will not pressure nor question you about it. Loving dear is to wait patiently for you, be it a year or 2, or 10 or maybe more? The question is, are you worth waiting for? The answer will be yes. To what extend you would ask now? To the extend of eventually if dear managed to find someone you could commit with, I will still love you from the bottom of my heart. I will not get angry or unhappy as to love someone is to see her happy. Like I've always told you the same thing, "I'm happy as long as you're happy". Even though it may hurt to see you in someone else's arms, but I wouldn't be happy if you aren't happy...
I agree people do come and go in your life so fast without clue nor trace. There's when they have an objective not met and then, they move on with life. Yes, they have to. But, after the first day of getting to know you, I realise that if one day I shall be made to come to this point, I believe I will still be very persistent and not give up on you. Yes, I shall move on with life, but not finding another girl but concerntrating on my career. Every girl is different in this world and I definitely will not be able to find someone like you again, therefore....
And by the way, I never wanted something dear cannot give to me. Yes, I wanted something and that something is your happiness. If that is something you cannot give to me, I really have nothing to say. I wanted your smiles, your laughter, your happiness to surround you and me when we're together. That's all I ask for. I am not asking for commitment or anything else which will make you troubled or confused. Neither will I dilute this feeling as I am ready to be hurt as it's worth being hurt by someone I love. Dear don't need to hide from me, I know you won't be home all the time as you are busy. Busy with your appointments, your projects or something else, I do understand. If I'm ready to be hurt, I'm ready to accept you as who you are and not that you changed to something else I totally don't know about. You are you and I will accept you.
Relationship is a very wonderful thing. It's not about hurting each other. It's about loving each other more and getting together comfortably and happily. The more closer I am to you doesn't mean you will hurt me more. If I'm hurt, I believe I'm still vulnerable in relationship and therefore would need more experience in that. So if I'm being hurt, I'm still on the learning process. Whoever says love will not be hurt is a liar. It's a growing up process everyone goes through. It's only those who persist will be able to pull thru and get together happily ever after.
And please do not handle your feelings and sorrows by yourself. Dear please share with me if you are feeling sad/happy/moody etc. No doubt your opinions are much more stubborn, it doesn't matter. I believe time will dissolve all stubborn opinions as time goes by. How long would that take you would ask me? I shall say, we should not set a time limit, let nature takes it course naturally so you won't be pressured.
We will still be the same and I hope that we can even be better~~~ Love your honesty, love your simplicity, your happiness and love singing with you~~~ We still have alot of duet songs not accomplished yet. Hope to be singing the new duets you're learning soon....
looking for her lost kaleidoscope at 2:00 PM | back to top
自从认识妳的第一天就喜欢上妳,这是缘分,也是新的开始...
Monday, October 6, 2008
Dear has finally read my blog after her persistency in asking about my blog's address. My heart is pounding fast after giving her the url to read my blog... Lots of thinking starting appearing my mind... I guessed I'm too thicked skin, she won't be interested in a person like me...
My heart hurts when I saw dear typed in her blog that she's crying. Dear, I know you are in a terrible state you didn't want to. Nobody wants you to be in that state either and it just happens that you are in this state and everyone does feel helpless @ times. We just need friends around to pull us up and that will bring us back to life. Like you mention that "a kinda strength is gushing up to your head" when you received help from me. I was very happy that I could help you a little even though it's not much that could be of help to you.
If dear is worrying that I might ask you how long you'll be in that situation... pls do not worry a single bit about that. I will not pressure nor question you about it. Loving dear is to wait patiently for you, be it a year or 2, or 10 or maybe more? The question is, are you worth waiting for? The answer will be yes. To what extend you would ask now? To the extend of eventually if dear managed to find someone you could commit with, I will still love you from the bottom of my heart. I will not get angry or unhappy as to love someone is to see her happy. Like I've always told you the same thing, "I'm happy as long as you're happy". Even though it may hurt to see you in someone else's arms, but I wouldn't be happy if you aren't happy...
I agree people do come and go in your life so fast without clue nor trace. There's when they have an objective not met and then, they move on with life. Yes, they have to. But, after the first day of getting to know you, I realise that if one day I shall be made to come to this point, I believe I will still be very persistent and not give up on you. Yes, I shall move on with life, but not finding another girl but concerntrating on my career. Every girl is different in this world and I definitely will not be able to find someone like you again, therefore....
And by the way, I never wanted something dear cannot give to me. Yes, I wanted something and that something is your happiness. If that is something you cannot give to me, I really have nothing to say. I wanted your smiles, your laughter, your happiness to surround you and me when we're together. That's all I ask for. I am not asking for commitment or anything else which will make you troubled or confused. Neither will I dilute this feeling as I am ready to be hurt as it's worth being hurt by someone I love. Dear don't need to hide from me, I know you won't be home all the time as you are busy. Busy with your appointments, your projects or something else, I do understand. If I'm ready to be hurt, I'm ready to accept you as who you are and not that you changed to something else I totally don't know about. You are you and I will accept you.
Relationship is a very wonderful thing. It's not about hurting each other. It's about loving each other more and getting together comfortably and happily. The more closer I am to you doesn't mean you will hurt me more. If I'm hurt, I believe I'm still vulnerable in relationship and therefore would need more experience in that. So if I'm being hurt, I'm still on the learning process. Whoever says love will not be hurt is a liar. It's a growing up process everyone goes through. It's only those who persist will be able to pull thru and get together happily ever after.
And please do not handle your feelings and sorrows by yourself. Dear please share with me if you are feeling sad/happy/moody etc. No doubt your opinions are much more stubborn, it doesn't matter. I believe time will dissolve all stubborn opinions as time goes by. How long would that take you would ask me? I shall say, we should not set a time limit, let nature takes it course naturally so you won't be pressured.
We will still be the same and I hope that we can even be better~~~ Love your honesty, love your simplicity, your happiness and love singing with you~~~ We still have alot of duet songs not accomplished yet. Hope to be singing the new duets you're learning soon....
looking for her lost kaleidoscope at 2:00 PM | back to top
Simple
♥DOB: 4/6/1989 & i'm 19 vintage years
♥Major: Apparel Design and Merchandising
♥Mode: Single, Available at your own Risk ( Unable to Commit )
♥Everyday:
sleep at ungodly hours,
wake up at the most exaggerated timing,
rushing to school at the slowest manner,
listening to Goodbye Days & holding a cigarette in hand,
reach sewing room and veron's stare lands on me pek-chekly,
all my classmates smells my strawberry scent,
they turn around and told me they knew i came,
rush my work like fuck & always asking around for help,
always able to finish my work before the last minute of the submission time,
come latest to class but leave earliest,
rush to work and come back at ungodly hours of the night,
online till 5am and the routine goes again,
but i know i can do it when i want to do it=).
i'm not like this in the past.
but i'm not the the past anymore.
♥Biatchality:
like a hybrid of a morning glory and sunflower.
and when i set my heart to so something, i make sure i will do it.
♥Looking:
Friends that learn to hang out together,
take care of each other,
willing to let me cling!
♥Message:
treasure me,
i'll treasure you x2.
♥Loves:
friends and hanging out
colours pink/ white/ brown
photography and cam-whoring
blogging and writing diary
shopping with girls
ktv-ing and standing on the sofa
clubbing and grinding girls
pubbing and looking for someone who can win me dice
PLAYING DICE and laugh at how stupid my opponent is
beaching and wearing colourful bikinis
listening to music like bossa nova jazz
watching korean/ hk/ taiwan drama & jap anime
sleeping at 5am daily
fashion and designing
brown classic handbags
sexy lingerie and translucent nightwear
wearing one-piece babydoll
loves big japanese perms
♥Bread: rochor beancurd
club sandwich
kimchi
green & yellow curry
tomyam soup
steamboat
kinderbreuno
boost chocolate
lemon juice
chef salad
wasabi salmon
cheese fries
next chill
impact peach
below42 passionfruit
absolut peach
hokkien mee lots chilli
猪脚醋
stingray
rojak
♥Cravings: rochor beancurd
kinderbreuno
big perms
samsung omnia
gucci bag
new laptop
estee lauder white linen perfume
you being there like before.
♥Email/MSN/Friendster/Facebook :
Stop trying to peep at my email!!!
i promise i will not walk out on you if you give me a chance...
i will not let u be sad anymore
but will this chance ever been given since you've locked yourself up???
awaiting for piggie to unlock herself and give chance...
to someone who treasures her...
自从认识妳的第一天就喜欢上妳,这是缘分,也是新的开始...
