Amazing people will do almost amazing things unbelievable. For those who doesn't trust or believed in me, I've done it and proved them wrong anyway and also proved to myself that I can do it if I want to as I do always have optimistic mindset.
Created a Guiness Singapore of record by completing my online taxi course in 2 hours or probably lesser. The record holder who complete the course previously did so using 4 hours or 41/2 hours. Am now just waiting for East Wind to arrive and all will be set.
Proud of myself and will continue to work out more things to be happy and to let my family be happy and proud of me too.
It doesn't matter who doesn't believe me when I did something wrong, but it really does matters is when I do something wrong, yes I do get reprimanded and yet my family will always pick me up and will not continue hurting me and will encourage me to work hard. I'm human and that's basically what I need from close ones too.
Not to keep dwelling on the mistakes I've made as those are the past history that has to be learned and forgotten. (Thanks YT for your advice) Will become smarter from stupid mistakes and experiences and strive to become a better person day by day.
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01) faithful - 属马的会专一吗?只有时间能证明 02) security - 永远的保护茹茹 03) presentable - 我很丑,但是我.... Argh! 还不够温柔 04) needs me badly - I really need ruru badly, 每时刻都想妳 05) i am his priority - 妳知我知 06) loves sticky gf - Don't bath then will be sticky ba, but I like~~~ 07) thoughtful - 我会吗?给我一个机会让我学会对妳 thoughtful 吧 08) have time for me always - Your time is your time, my time is also your time. Enough said. 09) don't mind explaining things to me patiently - 我有啊.. 如果我没,要你撒娇来提醒我,好吗? 10) doesn't flirt - 为了妳,我绝对不会 11) economically stable - 我还在努力 12) listen to pop songs - 嗯, 为你而活,草戒指 13) forgiving heart - 我还在学,给我时间 14) wants to see me 24hr - 25 hours can? 24 not enough 15) checks on me 24hr - 检查二十四小时? 检查哪里呢??? 哈哈哈.... 转行做茹茹的私人"医生" 16) calls me every hr - 可以.... 别觉得我烦就行了 17) romantic - ah~~~~~~~~~~ 什么是 romantic 呢? Flips books in library 18) remembers every monthly anni - 嗯 19) do things to surprise me - Surprise! 我在厠所外的惊喜 20) gives in to me - 当然!!! 不然.... 茹茹会说..... "Find die" 即使不说,我也会give in的 21) understanding - Wah... 这好累的哦!!! "Under" standing lay. 壁虎头会累的哦!!! 22) doesn't make me feel left out - 陪你,陪你,陪你 23) doesn't sit in front of the fucking tv and play video games everyday. - 我家没电视机!!!! 24) doesn't force me to do housework when i am busy - 我会做家务 25) appreciated my chocolates and cookies - 求之不得 26) can help me sketch and draw my hwk - 好开心,开心,开心~~~~~~~~~ 27) loves to see me every morning - 我看到了.... 但还不够!!! 28) bring me to tour - Flips newspaper and look for tourguide job.. Only tourguide for 茹茹宝贝 29) pay my shopping fees occasionally - Only on occasion ah... cos "occasionally" ma.. 30) send me roses during valentines - 啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 31) dine at nice restaurants on vdae and xmas - 嗯 32) doesn't have many female friends buzzing around him - 我女型朋友不多.... 33) only have eyes on me - My favorite song. Eyes on me.. Eyes on 茹茹 34) brings me out regularly - Ok! 35) loves me clinging onto him - LOVE IT! 36) declares my status to everyone he knew - Hehehe..... 37) support my work - 很 support lo.... 38) doesn't leave me - 我答应, 我不会离开妳........ 39) loves me madly - Very madly... 40) want to take me as his wife - This is always what I wanted in my mind. 我有说过我不想茹茹做我的女友!!! 我不要, 不是因为不喜欢或爱她,是因为.....女朋友? 那够!!! 我要茹茹做我的妻子.... 而且不是一时的妻子,是今生,不,来世也要! 我很贪心的....
开心六: 终于到了kster,好开心.房间19号，宝贝的年龄．还蛮大间的... 开始点歌，唱了我们两喜欢的对唱歌曲．我也终于有机会听到宝贝LIVE真音演唱会!!!! 好好听!!!! *Mesmerized and Melts* 好喜欢她唱谢谢爱，爱的主打歌.都是真音的..... 我就知道如果不来的话，我一定会后悔!!!唱着唱着，我心跳突然停止，而在那一瞬间又突然的"扑通,扑通" 跳得非常的快~~~ 不知宝贝有没有感觉到.... 我快飞起来了~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 宝贝突然坐在我身边，整个身体躺在我右身边，这是我万万没想到，也没去想过的（never come across my mind)．我紧张，但好喜欢这感觉，于是把手放在宝贝的腿上，她没抗拒我，我好开心，真的真的很开心．我用右手轻轻抱着她，多希望时间能在这时刻停顿下来,让我抱着她一辈子........唱完最后一首"I still believe" 便离开了..... 虽然不舍得，但是...................... kster已经关门了，别人也要回家睡觉的ok!!! 哈哈哈哈哈哈....
其实我不喜欢宝贝一直不停提醒或重复着说: "人总会离开的"至少我知道我不会．希望宝贝能听话点，别再对我说这些伤心的话．我会难过的．真的! 如过人总有一天会离去，那就该说给其他人听吧，因为我不是他们~~~~~~~~~~~我不会离开宝贝的，除非..... 我死了.... 不然，我决不让同样的悲剧发生在宝贝身上.... 我会象Naruto一样能给的保证!! I mean it!
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Sunday, November 2, 2008
幸福开心的一天
这是我和她的第一次拥抱,我会永远记住这一天的.....
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Dear has finally read my blog after her persistency in asking about my blog's address. My heart is pounding fast after giving her the url to read my blog... Lots of thinking starting appearing my mind... I guessed I'm too thicked skin, she won't be interested in a person like me...
My heart hurts when I saw dear typed in her blog that she's crying. Dear, I know you are in a terrible state you didn't want to. Nobody wants you to be in that state either and it just happens that you are in this state and everyone does feel helpless @ times. We just need friends around to pull us up and that will bring us back to life. Like you mention that "a kinda strength is gushing up to your head" when you received help from me. I was very happy that I could help you a little even though it's not much that could be of help to you.
If dear is worrying that I might ask you how long you'll be in that situation... pls do not worry a single bit about that. I will not pressure nor question you about it. Loving dear is to wait patiently for you, be it a year or 2, or 10 or maybe more? The question is, are you worth waiting for? The answer will be yes. To what extend you would ask now? To the extend of eventually if dear managed to find someone you could commit with, I will still love you from the bottom of my heart. I will not get angry or unhappy as to love someone is to see her happy. Like I've always told you the same thing, "I'm happy as long as you're happy". Even though it may hurt to see you in someone else's arms, but I wouldn't be happy if you aren't happy...
I agree people do come and go in your life so fast without clue nor trace. There's when they have an objective not met and then, they move on with life. Yes, they have to. But, after the first day of getting to know you, I realise that if one day I shall be made to come to this point, I believe I will still be very persistent and not give up on you. Yes, I shall move on with life, but not finding another girl but concerntrating on my career. Every girl is different in this world and I definitely will not be able to find someone like you again, therefore....
And by the way, I never wanted something dear cannot give to me. Yes, I wanted something and that something is your happiness. If that is something you cannot give to me, I really have nothing to say. I wanted your smiles, your laughter, your happiness to surround you and me when we're together. That's all I ask for. I am not asking for commitment or anything else which will make you troubled or confused. Neither will I dilute this feeling as I am ready to be hurt as it's worth being hurt by someone I love. Dear don't need to hide from me, I know you won't be home all the time as you are busy. Busy with your appointments, your projects or something else, I do understand. If I'm ready to be hurt, I'm ready to accept you as who you are and not that you changed to something else I totally don't know about. You are you and I will accept you.
Relationship is a very wonderful thing. It's not about hurting each other. It's about loving each other more and getting together comfortably and happily. The more closer I am to you doesn't mean you will hurt me more. If I'm hurt, I believe I'm still vulnerable in relationship and therefore would need more experience in that. So if I'm being hurt, I'm still on the learning process. Whoever says love will not be hurt is a liar. It's a growing up process everyone goes through. It's only those who persist will be able to pull thru and get together happily ever after.
And please do not handle your feelings and sorrows by yourself. Dear please share with me if you are feeling sad/happy/moody etc. No doubt your opinions are much more stubborn, it doesn't matter. I believe time will dissolve all stubborn opinions as time goes by. How long would that take you would ask me? I shall say, we should not set a time limit, let nature takes it course naturally so you won't be pressured.
We will still be the same and I hope that we can even be better~~~ Love your honesty, love your simplicity, your happiness and love singing with you~~~ We still have alot of duet songs not accomplished yet. Hope to be singing the new duets you're learning soon....
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Feeling sick today. Horrible sickness that puts me down. Unable to go steamboat supper with piggie already. I'm so sad but am sick so can't do anything. Hope to get well soon so can bring her go have steamboat someday. Sms chat with piggie today and was very happy cos she kept me company.
Halfway thru, I dozed off in between 9pm to 11pm. This may sound scary but I had a few nightmares due to insufficient sleep for the past few days. I am very clear that I woke up looking at my bedroom window as my face is facing there. But I just couldn't rise myself up. I was scared, I was afraid, I tried to shout but no words came out of my mouth. I closed my eyes again and open, it was the same, I still see my bedroom window but I couldn't wake up. I remained calm and tell myself, even if it's "those things", seriously I never harm them before and I close my eyes for 1 more time and this time, with determination, I woke up and felt relieved.
Got an sms from piggie @ around 12am+ to 1am+ telling me she had a lil alcohol too much already. Was very worried about her. Hope she's doing fine. Received another sms around 2am+ telling me that she's very giddy and having a headache.
I'm so so happy! She sms me "dear".... (^_^)(^_^) *feels like floating and hittng the rooftop le..
I started to worry more and immediately rushed down to fetch her and send her home within a short period. There she was, so beautiful taking her rest and I felt so trusted once again. Shit!~~ still couldn't concentrate on driving as was taking short look at her, look at her tired face, her nice hair and also noting that the sweater did not fall off her as am afraid she'll catch a cold. Finally reached her place, offered to send her up but she refused... :( Hmm, well, it's alright. As long as piggie is home safe and sound, I believe I could sleep soundly tonight. Tomorrow is a very busy day for me... Gambate~~~ Work hard dude...
Dead tired... Rushing off to my bed~~~~ (-.-)zZzzZzz
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
4th meetup:-
Went to ktv to look for piggie, sang 心动心痛 with her, nice harmonizing but somewhere between ending the song, she forget her part... *kokz piggie's head* Sang some songs with Mx. A very nice guy to sing song together with... very relax and enjoyable.. Accomplished songs like 会说话的哑巴 and 擦肩而过
Played dice with piggie again. This time, I won! 10 rounds or more consecutively when she calls 4 "6"s. Next, we play her style and I lost almost everytime, still very hard to go against her luck with dice and I lost alot of rounds after.
Send her home and she ask if I'm hungry. Went to HK cafe and had some nice food. Pamelo dessert with Sago and siew mai and fried dumplings. Piggie says she likes to eat vinegar... LOL.... kk, I'll remember that... Sent her home and I headed home immediately...
Was totally tired out and back and shoulder was very painful due to sleeping on the floor 2 days ago.. crap~~~ but overall am a happy man... have been seeing my piggie very often... (^_^)
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Saturday, October 4, 2008
3rd meetup:-
Piggie went to Orchard with her god-sis and had loads of fun taking neoprints and walking along Orchard. As she was bored, she requested to meet up early but I was busy. Piggie ended up drinking some soup from MOS. Piggie, I'm so sorry to make u wait so long and hungry that you have to drink soup... Ended up meeting her around 5plus. Omg, she looks so gorgeous in that dress.. I really love her in that dress very much. Brought her to have some western food and she enjoyed it. She likes the sausages.... (Oooo... sausages... kakakaka... :P)
After dinner, we went to ECP arcade but it was quite runned down as she was "ready" to challenge my daytona. Well, too bad no daytona at ECP so we played a little monkey chug game and she was so lousy! Allowing the drunk monkey to fall of the chair without balancing it. Guess my buddy is still the most pro in playing this game. Next, played photohunt.. she's bad at hunting photos as well... helped her alot of times... we had fun~~~~
Next destination, we went to Coffee Bean, time to show piggie her newly "revived" laptop. As good as new. She started up the system while I bought drinks. She was shocked when she started her system when she saw the wallpaper. She quickly changed it and I was sad~~~~ omg... very sad.. didn't anticipated that.. I think she doesn't like the wallpaper... :( I'm so happy that I proved to her that her system was completely fixed. Her bluetooth web-cam (she complained wasn't working), windows update and the softwares she wanted, "Microsoft Office, firefox, windows media player 11 and all new software updates including IE7. Next, we played mario 3 together and she can't control mario well and was dead in a short time. Can't even get the leaf to start flying.... So, I helped her a bit and got her the leaf... She started running and all the way~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ into the hole!!! So HARD to get the leaf and she flew straight into the hole~~ I was laughing so hard that she slapped my arm... Ouch! Next, we watched youtube videos together... I felt so happy to be able to do some thing with her together finally.... Got an sms that I'll be late for a friend's birthday and am ready to go down to the ktv pub to celebrate for her.
In the midst of testing her laptop, she got sms and call from her fren or "him" to go to ktv too. I was very sad and disappointed. I got a feeling she's going to PS me again... I know she doesn't belong to me, therefore, my heart hurts cos my plan to help her is going down the drain... I felt really really very sad.. not angry at all... eventually, piggie agree to go ktv pub celebrate birthday with my friend and I was happy again. (^_^)
Upon reaching the pub, wished my friend Happy Birthday~~ Dodo bird the pro singer started singing and gosh, her voice is heavenly and when she sings english songs, it's so professional like a real singer in the making! Piggie play dice with my dice shifu and shifu lost terribly. It was so fun seeing them play dice. Birthday celebrations proceed, alot of photos taken and I sang some songs. Sang a very nice 一眼瞬间 with Dodo bird, awesome! As piggie wasn't feeling quite well, we left early
Piggie started rejecting me again.. telling me she's not feeling well and tired as she wants to go home soon and not prawn fishing. My whole world is crashing.... the whole night I wasn't able to carry out my plan as her bag was with her all the time. I felt sad once again. Seeing that I was sad, she agree to go a short while with me. I was happy again...
Next destination, prawn fishing... When we reached the prawn farm, piggie was very surprised to see the amount of crowd prawning. We got our tools ready and started prawning. Things really started getting farnie. I could catch a prawn almost in every 2 mins. But... some "good" prawner previously says she's good? Didn't managed to catch much. She requested for 10 mins to catch 1 at 1st. Then slowly, it became 15 mins... then 20 mins.. (still none at all) and then, 30 mins passed... not even a sight of prawn claw.... :P The moment I took over the rod, another prawn caught! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooo GOOD. :P I told her I don't want to catch those prawns but they just keep coming... well, too bad.. :P
Suddenly, she started doing a very silly thing! She pull down my zip!! I was shocked! I ask her not to play with my zip cos it's SO WRONG! If my buddy were to know of this, he will surely agree with me that playing zip is a wrong thing to do especially during prawn fishing. The kinky thing about piggie IS, she not only wanna "pull down" my zip, after pulling down and having fun, she wanna help me pull back "up". OMG, this is SO SO WRONG again~~~ We had alot of fun and I'm very happy. I managed to catch 8 prawns and she caught 2. She was persistent, doesn't want to give up, so I pass the rod to her. That's where my plan succeeded. She concentrate so hard in catching that it's time for me to play with her "zip" and I won~~~ Happy! Happy! Eventually she caught 1 and I caught another when we ended the prawning session. Total score: Me=9, piggie=3.
Piggie was fuming, she doesn't admit lose and wanted me to challenge her in daytona. We headed for our destination immediately and reached. Made alot of wrong turns due to the construction @ MS. Finally reached our destination and saw MS under construction. Adviced piggie to close her eyes as it's really dark and scary. She did so and I'm so happy she listened to me... (^_^) Send piggie back and halfway thru, she said she was tired and took a snooze. I was very happy that she trust me and have confidence in me. Shit! I couldn't concentrate on driving as I was admiring her beauty. People often say, women are most beautiful when they are asleep. I guess it's true. I drove at considerable speed so that I could see more of her but time is running short, I drove too fast and reached her place. I drove very slowly over each hump but she still woke up automatically, sad.... if not, I can admire her more... Reach her blk and she got off. Waved her goodbye and dropped her an sms about my surprise for her and my phone went flat. Was worried and therefore drove to the front of the block to see if she's safe and sound reaching home. She saw me, I was scared! I drove as fast as I could hoping she couldn't chase after me. Alot of thoughts running in my mind.
- Will piggie be angry? - Will piggie be mad at me? - Will piggie feel insulted?
Quickly went to charge my phone and sms her. Shit of me to give her surprise as she didn't reply. I really started panicking.. Stupid me! Stupid me I said... mummering.. Suddenly she called me and we chat.. I really love hearing her voice when she's tired.... piggie's voice is soft and sweet... giving me a very vulnerable, loving and sexy feel of her... how I wish piggie is my gf where I can hear it in the morning before I work and at night before I sleep... (afternoon reserve for phone call.. :P) We ended our chat and I reached home.
Very tired and shagged out after a whole day of fun. 1st time I slept with a nice dream smiling from the bottom of my heart.. (^_^)
[YIPPIE!!]
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Friday, October 3, 2008
Piggie has arranged to meet for dinner @ night, let's hope not being PS today again. Alot of plans and programs have been carefully planned to make sure piggie will not be bored.
Awaiting eagerly~~~~~
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[Disappointed - Tio PSed]
Piggie's appointment all screwed and was informed that she couldn't meet me today and she has to meet her friends for gathering. . . . . Netherless, arranged to meet her up to collect her laptop from her since she's busy and won't be using it. Collected the laptop from her and she went for her ktv fun.
Went home and started her system. Gosh, horrible, went to the startup screen and freezed there for very long. Called piggie for help and learn how to "logon" to her system using a unique way. The system was previously terribly done by her "IT" friend and was pirated! No updates at all, using all the old softwares and infected with virus somemore.. what a headache for me... nightmare... nightmare... As I was figuring out how to fix the system, my buddy contacted me and jio me for lunner (lunch+dinner). Went KFC and had some food and a lil discussion. Buddy went for his jog and I went home as I haven't sleep since yesterday (due to reading piggie's blog)
Reached home and went online. Saw piggie online and was curious. Asked if she has 2 system and she replied NOT and quickly chat fast and went to sleep... felt so hurt..
She says she's at "someone's" house and using his system. The moment I saw the message, I really felt something sharp piercing right thru my heart like 心如刀割... it was very painful... but who am I to her? I'm not anybody to her at all, she has the right to do anything she wants. I already guessed that she is with somebody but can't confirm much. My feelin's towards her is growing even stronger, how can I help this lovely girl from her bad situation now, there's really nothing I can do... I'm outta ideas, I'm so troubled..
I told her I can't sleep and piggie didn't know it was because I've read her blog and also because she's not at home. Getting Insomnia soon....
How I wish that she knows that I can be the one beside her, to hug her to sleep so that she can sleep soundly without the need to be scared of "those things" I really hope that I can cuddle her... how I wish.... how I...
Started fixing her system getting all files backed up 1st cos it's her precious files. Next, formatted her system and reinstall everthing. Downloaded alot of necessary drivers and files for her laptop. Duh, this is really tough, 1st time encounter such scenario. After everything is installed properly, a virus scan was runned and found virus in her files. Now her system is clean of viruses. As the system was done, did a special wallpaper for her to surprise her (Not sure if she'll appreciate it or not) Hope she will feel happy when she starts her laptop. As I know that piggie is always bored, put in some old games but VALUABLE games for her and also, quite some TVB shows so that she can watch when she feels bored. Didn't realise that the time was 4am+ already. Am totally shagged and dead tired... fell asleep on the floor...
[Tired and knocked out]
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Thursday, October 2, 2008
2nd meetup:-
Make arrangements to meet up today with piggie to have Sushi Tei dinner. My buddy went to Suntec City for Motorshow 2008. I went Suntec City to meet him and lucky for my buddy, he got free tix for Motorshow 2008. It was boring @ Motorshow this year, not much cars to see, not interested to see babes for once was eager to meet piggie soon.
Got sms on and off from piggie and was being informed that she'll be late. Around 6.20pm. When the time reach for me to meet her, went over and was late instead! Saw a grumpy looking piggie (hmmm, now thinking of it, she looks like grumpy bear... oOPs!)
We all went to Sushi Tei and was told that we need to wait for 20 mins before we could get a seat so we walked around. Buddy was commenting that piggie is a ice-cream seller because of her noisy metal bangles... Hahahaha... they both kept souring each other but my buddy had the last say and piggie was outta words...
Finally, 20 mins up and it's time for us to dine. Piggie says that the ambience and decoration is very nice, I agree on that too. Start ordering food and gosh! We really order loads of food!! From salmon sashimi, cooked and raw salmon belly sushi, cold tofu, yakiniku golden mushroom roll, cream mayonaise scallops~~ yummy!!~~~
Now comes the fun part, everyone playing with wasabi!!! and omg! Piggie put alot of wasabi into my sauce plate making it the most creamiest wasabi soy sauce dish! And really taste like green toothpaste when I dip my sushi in~~~ Awww~~~ I ate till I teared and my buddy saw it.. Eat until bored liao, we started some lame jokes and piggie became very COLD hearing all our lame and racist jokes. After all the main course, we ordered dessert ice balls and that was a very nice dessert I've ever had. Allowing the ice balls to slowly melt in your mouth. Comes in 4 flavors I could remember: "Mango(Yellow), Apple(Green), Lychee(White) and Grape(Purple)"
After dinner, buddy drove us all to ktv together. Sang alot of duet songs together and totally enjoy the atmosphere and the fun. Harmonizing is so fun and piggie did a great job in that. Singing with her is totally enjoyment. Sang alot of duet songs I loved to sing and piggie did a great harmonizing. Starting to felt a little more feelings for her while singing 对你有感觉 but she didn't realise it. Probably it's just a song to her. Sang 需要你的爱 and it's a very tough song for me man but I'm happy I managed to sing the whole song with her + do the effects in within.. Last but not least, sang 珊瑚海 with her before closing and I love the song so much! 1st time that I can sing this song with a girl whom can harmonize well. Wish accomplished~~
Started playing dice with piggie and she keep winning! Omg, she's so in luck with dice~~ My buddy and I was so convinced that she has very good luck with dice. We admit defeat and shall play the next time again. Switched to cards and piggie started losing as she said before, she have no luck with cards. More singing continued and buddy is feeling tired. He went home 1st and later on, I met piggie to send her back home. She promised to meet me up on both Thursday and Friday. I'm so happy, can get to see her again... Yay!
My 1st time sending piggie home, I'm so happy I'm getting this close to her. Watching her from near just sitting beside me. I'm sorry for scaring her when I did an unexpected lane change but she recovered soon. Reach her place and wish her goodnight. Gosh, I was so tired but felt worth it. Upon reaching home, couldn't sleep, mind keep thinking about piggie. Started clicking on her diary and read, the more I read, the more heart pain I felt for her about the things she has gone thru and is going thru... I really wish, I really hope I was her bf so that I could share those pain with her but I can't. . . she has already locked herself up and doesn't wish to commit anymore. . . I'm so troubled, I couldn't sleep and I stayed awake till the wee hours in the early morning. . . . .
[TROUBLED]
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
2nd chat with her:-
Though it's only online chat, but as long as I'm chatting with you, not sure why but feels very happy... (^_^)
We chat about eat prawns and she doesn't like really like seafood esp those with whiskers and legs (probably referring to prawns and lobsters. . . . omg, such delicacy!! well, she's a young girl, doesn't know how to appreciate food YET, so well...) But she loves salmon sashimi... (at least something in common) Then! we starting chatting about prawn fishing and her reaction was great! She said she LOVE prawn fishing and am a good prawner ok? Could still remember her words and she told me she managed to catch 1 netfull. Hmmmm, am interested to "see" for myself the next time I jio her for prawn fishing.... kekeke... (decided to tell her that I'm not good in prawning, perhaps she can "coach" a "noob" like me on how to "catch" prawns...)
She told me she can't play card games, she's a loser in cards. Well, cards I should say have techniques too depending on what kind of card games is being played but damn! She really have very good luck in dice! So good that my buddy and I kept losing and drinking... Drink until I feel a bit seh also....
Further chatting on, she told me she was dumped by her bf recently only and a bit down on her luck (sway!) and her laptop is giving her some serious problems. Not bad, need my help but no recovery cd, no driver application cd, no cd key somemore~~~~ (T.T) That is so terrible, 1st time encounter so difficult task laptop to fix. Told me that someone formatted for her before, no bluetooth, sd-card slot cannot use, cannot set wallpaper, chinese word function missing.... *fainting soon.... (I mean me, not her.. hahahaha)
Later on, we started chatting in cantonese, she's really a very talented girl, learn all the different languages. But only 1/2 smart, cos she didn't learn alot, only a lil bit of everything probably. And then, we try fixing for a time to meetup and pass me her laptop. We also agree that I'll fix her laptop for her while she'll "teach" me prawning. Am really eager and awaiting to see how she catch her prawns. :P Timing also fix to have sushi together @ sushi tei and was told that she will look down on people who doesn't have wasabi!!!~~~ Hmmm.... we shall see....
As we chat, I was getting ready to go out, she was so concern and keep bugging me to go soon as she doesn't want me to be late. We ended our chat and I left...
Another day of nice conversation with her. Gosh... although I've not seen her barely for 1 day only but I'm missing her already. . . . . . . really hope to see her very soon~~
lil piggie,
do u know that I really am missing u very much,
really hoping to see u soon, I've been giving u hints,
but seems like u have no slight idea about me liking u,
that's why I call u my lil piggie.. I guess u'll never know why..
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Feeling down...
(Mood: Grouchy)
Perhaps too much work and stress coming along feeling the tension and pressure, I was about to break down soon. Had a chat with my buddy and am touched he actually came down all the way to my home to look for me and pulled me out from all the demoralization. After bringing me around to office and closing a rental deal... I'm feeling confident again, getting ready to work hard. After closing the rental deal, it's time for party and we proceed down to ktv pub which is where fate brought me to her... a young lady.. very sweet and pretty.
It's fate:-
1st impression: Very quiet and fierce looking like lioness due to no smile (can eat anyone up anytime (O.O")) ... miss-dao... My friends and I were there to enjoy ourselves and we were singing very happily. As miss-dao is very quiet, had a hard time breaking the ice asking her what songs she sings/can sing normally. Being a humble girl, she tells us that she doesn't sing that well. So, we dedicated the 1st song 一眼瞬间 and she said ok. Wow, not bad... not alot of girls can sing this song well as it's sang by 张惠妹. We sang a few more songs and it's time for 一眼瞬间. Am very amazed and a bit shock when miss-dao sang the song as she's such a petite little girl, is still a teen and it's her 1st song of the day. She really spur up the tempo and we are quite sure that dedicating duet songs will not be a prob in future and therefore dedicated quite a number of duets to sing with her. I sang 千年之恋 with her and she could hit the notes very well. My friends and I were all amazed... Wow, this girl really can sing!
As time passed by, I realise she's a very cheerful girl and has a very sweet smile when she's happy. *mesmerized* After a lil chit-chat here and there, found out that it's her 1st day of work and therefore, my friends and I didn't bully her by making her drink too much. My friends were playing 5-10 with her and seems like she's kinda lucky, always don't get to drink much and always causing others to drink!! Hmmm... lucky girl!!
And now it's time for unplug, it's her 1st time singing unplug too. Sang 爱得正好 with her. Feelin' is very good but somehow, she misses the beat (probably feelin nervous) Kakakakakaka.... Overall is still nice and we managed to complete the song.
Chatting with her colleague, we managed to find out that it was him that create the lyrics for the song 可爱 and this seems to be her favorite song. She was amazed and jumping in joy when she knew about it. All these while, my eyes were on her like the song by 王菲 - Eyes on Me. Observing how happy she is, her smile, her eyes getting smaller and smaller as she smiled happily. I am really very interested to get to know more about her. As time passed by quickly, it's time for the pub to rest for the day and we exchanged contact numbers, waved goodbye and agree to meet up on Wednesday again.
When I reach home, drop her an sms and got a reply back. Started chatting with each other and realise she got a diary of her own. Was curious and therefore browse it for a short period. A nicely create website with beautiful songs... soothing and calming.. Found out that she likes to watch youtube alot. Saw the video about the guy doing the counting of numbers... "Ten, ten, ten, ten, ten..." (^_^) She told me she like the song 虽然我愿意 sang by my buddy as the lyrics has alot of meaning... Alright.. for her sake, I'll go practice that song cos my vocal range can't hit that tone... Damn! But I'll try....
We carry on our chat happily and it's time for her to sleep. The time is 5.50am.
(Mood: Happy!!)
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Amazing people will do almost amazing things unbelievable. For those who doesn't trust or believed in me, I've done it and proved them wrong anyway and also proved to myself that I can do it if I want to as I do always have optimistic mindset.
Created a Guiness Singapore of record by completing my online taxi course in 2 hours or probably lesser. The record holder who complete the course previously did so using 4 hours or 41/2 hours. Am now just waiting for East Wind to arrive and all will be set.
Proud of myself and will continue to work out more things to be happy and to let my family be happy and proud of me too.
It doesn't matter who doesn't believe me when I did something wrong, but it really does matters is when I do something wrong, yes I do get reprimanded and yet my family will always pick me up and will not continue hurting me and will encourage me to work hard. I'm human and that's basically what I need from close ones too.
Not to keep dwelling on the mistakes I've made as those are the past history that has to be learned and forgotten. (Thanks YT for your advice) Will become smarter from stupid mistakes and experiences and strive to become a better person day by day.
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01) faithful - 属马的会专一吗?只有时间能证明 02) security - 永远的保护茹茹 03) presentable - 我很丑,但是我.... Argh! 还不够温柔 04) needs me badly - I really need ruru badly, 每时刻都想妳 05) i am his priority - 妳知我知 06) loves sticky gf - Don't bath then will be sticky ba, but I like~~~ 07) thoughtful - 我会吗?给我一个机会让我学会对妳 thoughtful 吧 08) have time for me always - Your time is your time, my time is also your time. Enough said. 09) don't mind explaining things to me patiently - 我有啊.. 如果我没,要你撒娇来提醒我,好吗? 10) doesn't flirt - 为了妳,我绝对不会 11) economically stable - 我还在努力 12) listen to pop songs - 嗯, 为你而活,草戒指 13) forgiving heart - 我还在学,给我时间 14) wants to see me 24hr - 25 hours can? 24 not enough 15) checks on me 24hr - 检查二十四小时? 检查哪里呢??? 哈哈哈.... 转行做茹茹的私人"医生" 16) calls me every hr - 可以.... 别觉得我烦就行了 17) romantic - ah~~~~~~~~~~ 什么是 romantic 呢? Flips books in library 18) remembers every monthly anni - 嗯 19) do things to surprise me - Surprise! 我在厠所外的惊喜 20) gives in to me - 当然!!! 不然.... 茹茹会说..... "Find die" 即使不说,我也会give in的 21) understanding - Wah... 这好累的哦!!! "Under" standing lay. 壁虎头会累的哦!!! 22) doesn't make me feel left out - 陪你,陪你,陪你 23) doesn't sit in front of the fucking tv and play video games everyday. - 我家没电视机!!!! 24) doesn't force me to do housework when i am busy - 我会做家务 25) appreciated my chocolates and cookies - 求之不得 26) can help me sketch and draw my hwk - 好开心,开心,开心~~~~~~~~~ 27) loves to see me every morning - 我看到了.... 但还不够!!! 28) bring me to tour - Flips newspaper and look for tourguide job.. Only tourguide for 茹茹宝贝 29) pay my shopping fees occasionally - Only on occasion ah... cos "occasionally" ma.. 30) send me roses during valentines - 啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 31) dine at nice restaurants on vdae and xmas - 嗯 32) doesn't have many female friends buzzing around him - 我女型朋友不多.... 33) only have eyes on me - My favorite song. Eyes on me.. Eyes on 茹茹 34) brings me out regularly - Ok! 35) loves me clinging onto him - LOVE IT! 36) declares my status to everyone he knew - Hehehe..... 37) support my work - 很 support lo.... 38) doesn't leave me - 我答应, 我不会离开妳........ 39) loves me madly - Very madly... 40) want to take me as his wife - This is always what I wanted in my mind. 我有说过我不想茹茹做我的女友!!! 我不要, 不是因为不喜欢或爱她,是因为.....女朋友? 那够!!! 我要茹茹做我的妻子.... 而且不是一时的妻子,是今生,不,来世也要! 我很贪心的....
开心六: 终于到了kster,好开心.房间19号，宝贝的年龄．还蛮大间的... 开始点歌，唱了我们两喜欢的对唱歌曲．我也终于有机会听到宝贝LIVE真音演唱会!!!! 好好听!!!! *Mesmerized and Melts* 好喜欢她唱谢谢爱，爱的主打歌.都是真音的..... 我就知道如果不来的话，我一定会后悔!!!唱着唱着，我心跳突然停止，而在那一瞬间又突然的"扑通,扑通" 跳得非常的快~~~ 不知宝贝有没有感觉到.... 我快飞起来了~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 宝贝突然坐在我身边，整个身体躺在我右身边，这是我万万没想到，也没去想过的（never come across my mind)．我紧张，但好喜欢这感觉，于是把手放在宝贝的腿上，她没抗拒我，我好开心，真的真的很开心．我用右手轻轻抱着她，多希望时间能在这时刻停顿下来,让我抱着她一辈子........唱完最后一首"I still believe" 便离开了..... 虽然不舍得，但是...................... kster已经关门了，别人也要回家睡觉的ok!!! 哈哈哈哈哈哈....
其实我不喜欢宝贝一直不停提醒或重复着说: "人总会离开的"至少我知道我不会．希望宝贝能听话点，别再对我说这些伤心的话．我会难过的．真的! 如过人总有一天会离去，那就该说给其他人听吧，因为我不是他们~~~~~~~~~~~我不会离开宝贝的，除非..... 我死了.... 不然，我决不让同样的悲剧发生在宝贝身上.... 我会象Naruto一样能给的保证!! I mean it!
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Sunday, November 2, 2008
幸福开心的一天
这是我和她的第一次拥抱,我会永远记住这一天的.....
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Dear has finally read my blog after her persistency in asking about my blog's address. My heart is pounding fast after giving her the url to read my blog... Lots of thinking starting appearing my mind... I guessed I'm too thicked skin, she won't be interested in a person like me...
My heart hurts when I saw dear typed in her blog that she's crying. Dear, I know you are in a terrible state you didn't want to. Nobody wants you to be in that state either and it just happens that you are in this state and everyone does feel helpless @ times. We just need friends around to pull us up and that will bring us back to life. Like you mention that "a kinda strength is gushing up to your head" when you received help from me. I was very happy that I could help you a little even though it's not much that could be of help to you.
If dear is worrying that I might ask you how long you'll be in that situation... pls do not worry a single bit about that. I will not pressure nor question you about it. Loving dear is to wait patiently for you, be it a year or 2, or 10 or maybe more? The question is, are you worth waiting for? The answer will be yes. To what extend you would ask now? To the extend of eventually if dear managed to find someone you could commit with, I will still love you from the bottom of my heart. I will not get angry or unhappy as to love someone is to see her happy. Like I've always told you the same thing, "I'm happy as long as you're happy". Even though it may hurt to see you in someone else's arms, but I wouldn't be happy if you aren't happy...
I agree people do come and go in your life so fast without clue nor trace. There's when they have an objective not met and then, they move on with life. Yes, they have to. But, after the first day of getting to know you, I realise that if one day I shall be made to come to this point, I believe I will still be very persistent and not give up on you. Yes, I shall move on with life, but not finding another girl but concerntrating on my career. Every girl is different in this world and I definitely will not be able to find someone like you again, therefore....
And by the way, I never wanted something dear cannot give to me. Yes, I wanted something and that something is your happiness. If that is something you cannot give to me, I really have nothing to say. I wanted your smiles, your laughter, your happiness to surround you and me when we're together. That's all I ask for. I am not asking for commitment or anything else which will make you troubled or confused. Neither will I dilute this feeling as I am ready to be hurt as it's worth being hurt by someone I love. Dear don't need to hide from me, I know you won't be home all the time as you are busy. Busy with your appointments, your projects or something else, I do understand. If I'm ready to be hurt, I'm ready to accept you as who you are and not that you changed to something else I totally don't know about. You are you and I will accept you.
Relationship is a very wonderful thing. It's not about hurting each other. It's about loving each other more and getting together comfortably and happily. The more closer I am to you doesn't mean you will hurt me more. If I'm hurt, I believe I'm still vulnerable in relationship and therefore would need more experience in that. So if I'm being hurt, I'm still on the learning process. Whoever says love will not be hurt is a liar. It's a growing up process everyone goes through. It's only those who persist will be able to pull thru and get together happily ever after.
And please do not handle your feelings and sorrows by yourself. Dear please share with me if you are feeling sad/happy/moody etc. No doubt your opinions are much more stubborn, it doesn't matter. I believe time will dissolve all stubborn opinions as time goes by. How long would that take you would ask me? I shall say, we should not set a time limit, let nature takes it course naturally so you won't be pressured.
We will still be the same and I hope that we can even be better~~~ Love your honesty, love your simplicity, your happiness and love singing with you~~~ We still have alot of duet songs not accomplished yet. Hope to be singing the new duets you're learning soon....
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Feeling sick today. Horrible sickness that puts me down. Unable to go steamboat supper with piggie already. I'm so sad but am sick so can't do anything. Hope to get well soon so can bring her go have steamboat someday. Sms chat with piggie today and was very happy cos she kept me company.
Halfway thru, I dozed off in between 9pm to 11pm. This may sound scary but I had a few nightmares due to insufficient sleep for the past few days. I am very clear that I woke up looking at my bedroom window as my face is facing there. But I just couldn't rise myself up. I was scared, I was afraid, I tried to shout but no words came out of my mouth. I closed my eyes again and open, it was the same, I still see my bedroom window but I couldn't wake up. I remained calm and tell myself, even if it's "those things", seriously I never harm them before and I close my eyes for 1 more time and this time, with determination, I woke up and felt relieved.
Got an sms from piggie @ around 12am+ to 1am+ telling me she had a lil alcohol too much already. Was very worried about her. Hope she's doing fine. Received another sms around 2am+ telling me that she's very giddy and having a headache.
I'm so so happy! She sms me "dear".... (^_^)(^_^) *feels like floating and hittng the rooftop le..
I started to worry more and immediately rushed down to fetch her and send her home within a short period. There she was, so beautiful taking her rest and I felt so trusted once again. Shit!~~ still couldn't concentrate on driving as was taking short look at her, look at her tired face, her nice hair and also noting that the sweater did not fall off her as am afraid she'll catch a cold. Finally reached her place, offered to send her up but she refused... :( Hmm, well, it's alright. As long as piggie is home safe and sound, I believe I could sleep soundly tonight. Tomorrow is a very busy day for me... Gambate~~~ Work hard dude...
Dead tired... Rushing off to my bed~~~~ (-.-)zZzzZzz
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
4th meetup:-
Went to ktv to look for piggie, sang 心动心痛 with her, nice harmonizing but somewhere between ending the song, she forget her part... *kokz piggie's head* Sang some songs with Mx. A very nice guy to sing song together with... very relax and enjoyable.. Accomplished songs like 会说话的哑巴 and 擦肩而过
Played dice with piggie again. This time, I won! 10 rounds or more consecutively when she calls 4 "6"s. Next, we play her style and I lost almost everytime, still very hard to go against her luck with dice and I lost alot of rounds after.
Send her home and she ask if I'm hungry. Went to HK cafe and had some nice food. Pamelo dessert with Sago and siew mai and fried dumplings. Piggie says she likes to eat vinegar... LOL.... kk, I'll remember that... Sent her home and I headed home immediately...
Was totally tired out and back and shoulder was very painful due to sleeping on the floor 2 days ago.. crap~~~ but overall am a happy man... have been seeing my piggie very often... (^_^)
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Saturday, October 4, 2008
3rd meetup:-
Piggie went to Orchard with her god-sis and had loads of fun taking neoprints and walking along Orchard. As she was bored, she requested to meet up early but I was busy. Piggie ended up drinking some soup from MOS. Piggie, I'm so sorry to make u wait so long and hungry that you have to drink soup... Ended up meeting her around 5plus. Omg, she looks so gorgeous in that dress.. I really love her in that dress very much. Brought her to have some western food and she enjoyed it. She likes the sausages.... (Oooo... sausages... kakakaka... :P)
After dinner, we went to ECP arcade but it was quite runned down as she was "ready" to challenge my daytona. Well, too bad no daytona at ECP so we played a little monkey chug game and she was so lousy! Allowing the drunk monkey to fall of the chair without balancing it. Guess my buddy is still the most pro in playing this game. Next, played photohunt.. she's bad at hunting photos as well... helped her alot of times... we had fun~~~~
Next destination, we went to Coffee Bean, time to show piggie her newly "revived" laptop. As good as new. She started up the system while I bought drinks. She was shocked when she started her system when she saw the wallpaper. She quickly changed it and I was sad~~~~ omg... very sad.. didn't anticipated that.. I think she doesn't like the wallpaper... :( I'm so happy that I proved to her that her system was completely fixed. Her bluetooth web-cam (she complained wasn't working), windows update and the softwares she wanted, "Microsoft Office, firefox, windows media player 11 and all new software updates including IE7. Next, we played mario 3 together and she can't control mario well and was dead in a short time. Can't even get the leaf to start flying.... So, I helped her a bit and got her the leaf... She started running and all the way~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ into the hole!!! So HARD to get the leaf and she flew straight into the hole~~ I was laughing so hard that she slapped my arm... Ouch! Next, we watched youtube videos together... I felt so happy to be able to do some thing with her together finally.... Got an sms that I'll be late for a friend's birthday and am ready to go down to the ktv pub to celebrate for her.
In the midst of testing her laptop, she got sms and call from her fren or "him" to go to ktv too. I was very sad and disappointed. I got a feeling she's going to PS me again... I know she doesn't belong to me, therefore, my heart hurts cos my plan to help her is going down the drain... I felt really really very sad.. not angry at all... eventually, piggie agree to go ktv pub celebrate birthday with my friend and I was happy again. (^_^)
Upon reaching the pub, wished my friend Happy Birthday~~ Dodo bird the pro singer started singing and gosh, her voice is heavenly and when she sings english songs, it's so professional like a real singer in the making! Piggie play dice with my dice shifu and shifu lost terribly. It was so fun seeing them play dice. Birthday celebrations proceed, alot of photos taken and I sang some songs. Sang a very nice 一眼瞬间 with Dodo bird, awesome! As piggie wasn't feeling quite well, we left early
Piggie started rejecting me again.. telling me she's not feeling well and tired as she wants to go home soon and not prawn fishing. My whole world is crashing.... the whole night I wasn't able to carry out my plan as her bag was with her all the time. I felt sad once again. Seeing that I was sad, she agree to go a short while with me. I was happy again...
Next destination, prawn fishing... When we reached the prawn farm, piggie was very surprised to see the amount of crowd prawning. We got our tools ready and started prawning. Things really started getting farnie. I could catch a prawn almost in every 2 mins. But... some "good" prawner previously says she's good? Didn't managed to catch much. She requested for 10 mins to catch 1 at 1st. Then slowly, it became 15 mins... then 20 mins.. (still none at all) and then, 30 mins passed... not even a sight of prawn claw.... :P The moment I took over the rod, another prawn caught! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooo GOOD. :P I told her I don't want to catch those prawns but they just keep coming... well, too bad.. :P
Suddenly, she started doing a very silly thing! She pull down my zip!! I was shocked! I ask her not to play with my zip cos it's SO WRONG! If my buddy were to know of this, he will surely agree with me that playing zip is a wrong thing to do especially during prawn fishing. The kinky thing about piggie IS, she not only wanna "pull down" my zip, after pulling down and having fun, she wanna help me pull back "up". OMG, this is SO SO WRONG again~~~ We had alot of fun and I'm very happy. I managed to catch 8 prawns and she caught 2. She was persistent, doesn't want to give up, so I pass the rod to her. That's where my plan succeeded. She concentrate so hard in catching that it's time for me to play with her "zip" and I won~~~ Happy! Happy! Eventually she caught 1 and I caught another when we ended the prawning session. Total score: Me=9, piggie=3.
Piggie was fuming, she doesn't admit lose and wanted me to challenge her in daytona. We headed for our destination immediately and reached. Made alot of wrong turns due to the construction @ MS. Finally reached our destination and saw MS under construction. Adviced piggie to close her eyes as it's really dark and scary. She did so and I'm so happy she listened to me... (^_^) Send piggie back and halfway thru, she said she was tired and took a snooze. I was very happy that she trust me and have confidence in me. Shit! I couldn't concentrate on driving as I was admiring her beauty. People often say, women are most beautiful when they are asleep. I guess it's true. I drove at considerable speed so that I could see more of her but time is running short, I drove too fast and reached her place. I drove very slowly over each hump but she still woke up automatically, sad.... if not, I can admire her more... Reach her blk and she got off. Waved her goodbye and dropped her an sms about my surprise for her and my phone went flat. Was worried and therefore drove to the front of the block to see if she's safe and sound reaching home. She saw me, I was scared! I drove as fast as I could hoping she couldn't chase after me. Alot of thoughts running in my mind.
- Will piggie be angry? - Will piggie be mad at me? - Will piggie feel insulted?
Quickly went to charge my phone and sms her. Shit of me to give her surprise as she didn't reply. I really started panicking.. Stupid me! Stupid me I said... mummering.. Suddenly she called me and we chat.. I really love hearing her voice when she's tired.... piggie's voice is soft and sweet... giving me a very vulnerable, loving and sexy feel of her... how I wish piggie is my gf where I can hear it in the morning before I work and at night before I sleep... (afternoon reserve for phone call.. :P) We ended our chat and I reached home.
Very tired and shagged out after a whole day of fun. 1st time I slept with a nice dream smiling from the bottom of my heart.. (^_^)
[YIPPIE!!]
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Friday, October 3, 2008
Piggie has arranged to meet for dinner @ night, let's hope not being PS today again. Alot of plans and programs have been carefully planned to make sure piggie will not be bored.
Awaiting eagerly~~~~~
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[Disappointed - Tio PSed]
Piggie's appointment all screwed and was informed that she couldn't meet me today and she has to meet her friends for gathering. . . . . Netherless, arranged to meet her up to collect her laptop from her since she's busy and won't be using it. Collected the laptop from her and she went for her ktv fun.
Went home and started her system. Gosh, horrible, went to the startup screen and freezed there for very long. Called piggie for help and learn how to "logon" to her system using a unique way. The system was previously terribly done by her "IT" friend and was pirated! No updates at all, using all the old softwares and infected with virus somemore.. what a headache for me... nightmare... nightmare... As I was figuring out how to fix the system, my buddy contacted me and jio me for lunner (lunch+dinner). Went KFC and had some food and a lil discussion. Buddy went for his jog and I went home as I haven't sleep since yesterday (due to reading piggie's blog)
Reached home and went online. Saw piggie online and was curious. Asked if she has 2 system and she replied NOT and quickly chat fast and went to sleep... felt so hurt..
She says she's at "someone's" house and using his system. The moment I saw the message, I really felt something sharp piercing right thru my heart like 心如刀割... it was very painful... but who am I to her? I'm not anybody to her at all, she has the right to do anything she wants. I already guessed that she is with somebody but can't confirm much. My feelin's towards her is growing even stronger, how can I help this lovely girl from her bad situation now, there's really nothing I can do... I'm outta ideas, I'm so troubled..
I told her I can't sleep and piggie didn't know it was because I've read her blog and also because she's not at home. Getting Insomnia soon....
How I wish that she knows that I can be the one beside her, to hug her to sleep so that she can sleep soundly without the need to be scared of "those things" I really hope that I can cuddle her... how I wish.... how I...
Started fixing her system getting all files backed up 1st cos it's her precious files. Next, formatted her system and reinstall everthing. Downloaded alot of necessary drivers and files for her laptop. Duh, this is really tough, 1st time encounter such scenario. After everything is installed properly, a virus scan was runned and found virus in her files. Now her system is clean of viruses. As the system was done, did a special wallpaper for her to surprise her (Not sure if she'll appreciate it or not) Hope she will feel happy when she starts her laptop. As I know that piggie is always bored, put in some old games but VALUABLE games for her and also, quite some TVB shows so that she can watch when she feels bored. Didn't realise that the time was 4am+ already. Am totally shagged and dead tired... fell asleep on the floor...
[Tired and knocked out]
looking for her lost kaleidoscope at 4:45 AM | back to top
自从认识妳的第一天就喜欢上妳,这是缘分,也是新的开始...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
2nd meetup:-
Make arrangements to meet up today with piggie to have Sushi Tei dinner. My buddy went to Suntec City for Motorshow 2008. I went Suntec City to meet him and lucky for my buddy, he got free tix for Motorshow 2008. It was boring @ Motorshow this year, not much cars to see, not interested to see babes for once was eager to meet piggie soon.
Got sms on and off from piggie and was being informed that she'll be late. Around 6.20pm. When the time reach for me to meet her, went over and was late instead! Saw a grumpy looking piggie (hmmm, now thinking of it, she looks like grumpy bear... oOPs!)
We all went to Sushi Tei and was told that we need to wait for 20 mins before we could get a seat so we walked around. Buddy was commenting that piggie is a ice-cream seller because of her noisy metal bangles... Hahahaha... they both kept souring each other but my buddy had the last say and piggie was outta words...
Finally, 20 mins up and it's time for us to dine. Piggie says that the ambience and decoration is very nice, I agree on that too. Start ordering food and gosh! We really order loads of food!! From salmon sashimi, cooked and raw salmon belly sushi, cold tofu, yakiniku golden mushroom roll, cream mayonaise scallops~~ yummy!!~~~
Now comes the fun part, everyone playing with wasabi!!! and omg! Piggie put alot of wasabi into my sauce plate making it the most creamiest wasabi soy sauce dish! And really taste like green toothpaste when I dip my sushi in~~~ Awww~~~ I ate till I teared and my buddy saw it.. Eat until bored liao, we started some lame jokes and piggie became very COLD hearing all our lame and racist jokes. After all the main course, we ordered dessert ice balls and that was a very nice dessert I've ever had. Allowing the ice balls to slowly melt in your mouth. Comes in 4 flavors I could remember: "Mango(Yellow), Apple(Green), Lychee(White) and Grape(Purple)"
After dinner, buddy drove us all to ktv together. Sang alot of duet songs together and totally enjoy the atmosphere and the fun. Harmonizing is so fun and piggie did a great job in that. Singing with her is totally enjoyment. Sang alot of duet songs I loved to sing and piggie did a great harmonizing. Starting to felt a little more feelings for her while singing 对你有感觉 but she didn't realise it. Probably it's just a song to her. Sang 需要你的爱 and it's a very tough song for me man but I'm happy I managed to sing the whole song with her + do the effects in within.. Last but not least, sang 珊瑚海 with her before closing and I love the song so much! 1st time that I can sing this song with a girl whom can harmonize well. Wish accomplished~~
Started playing dice with piggie and she keep winning! Omg, she's so in luck with dice~~ My buddy and I was so convinced that she has very good luck with dice. We admit defeat and shall play the next time again. Switched to cards and piggie started losing as she said before, she have no luck with cards. More singing continued and buddy is feeling tired. He went home 1st and later on, I met piggie to send her back home. She promised to meet me up on both Thursday and Friday. I'm so happy, can get to see her again... Yay!
My 1st time sending piggie home, I'm so happy I'm getting this close to her. Watching her from near just sitting beside me. I'm sorry for scaring her when I did an unexpected lane change but she recovered soon. Reach her place and wish her goodnight. Gosh, I was so tired but felt worth it. Upon reaching home, couldn't sleep, mind keep thinking about piggie. Started clicking on her diary and read, the more I read, the more heart pain I felt for her about the things she has gone thru and is going thru... I really wish, I really hope I was her bf so that I could share those pain with her but I can't. . . she has already locked herself up and doesn't wish to commit anymore. . . I'm so troubled, I couldn't sleep and I stayed awake till the wee hours in the early morning. . . . .
[TROUBLED]
looking for her lost kaleidoscope at 4:20 AM | back to top
自从认识妳的第一天就喜欢上妳,这是缘分,也是新的开始...
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
2nd chat with her:-
Though it's only online chat, but as long as I'm chatting with you, not sure why but feels very happy... (^_^)
We chat about eat prawns and she doesn't like really like seafood esp those with whiskers and legs (probably referring to prawns and lobsters. . . . omg, such delicacy!! well, she's a young girl, doesn't know how to appreciate food YET, so well...) But she loves salmon sashimi... (at least something in common) Then! we starting chatting about prawn fishing and her reaction was great! She said she LOVE prawn fishing and am a good prawner ok? Could still remember her words and she told me she managed to catch 1 netfull. Hmmmm, am interested to "see" for myself the next time I jio her for prawn fishing.... kekeke... (decided to tell her that I'm not good in prawning, perhaps she can "coach" a "noob" like me on how to "catch" prawns...)
She told me she can't play card games, she's a loser in cards. Well, cards I should say have techniques too depending on what kind of card games is being played but damn! She really have very good luck in dice! So good that my buddy and I kept losing and drinking... Drink until I feel a bit seh also....
Further chatting on, she told me she was dumped by her bf recently only and a bit down on her luck (sway!) and her laptop is giving her some serious problems. Not bad, need my help but no recovery cd, no driver application cd, no cd key somemore~~~~ (T.T) That is so terrible, 1st time encounter so difficult task laptop to fix. Told me that someone formatted for her before, no bluetooth, sd-card slot cannot use, cannot set wallpaper, chinese word function missing.... *fainting soon.... (I mean me, not her.. hahahaha)
Later on, we started chatting in cantonese, she's really a very talented girl, learn all the different languages. But only 1/2 smart, cos she didn't learn alot, only a lil bit of everything probably. And then, we try fixing for a time to meetup and pass me her laptop. We also agree that I'll fix her laptop for her while she'll "teach" me prawning. Am really eager and awaiting to see how she catch her prawns. :P Timing also fix to have sushi together @ sushi tei and was told that she will look down on people who doesn't have wasabi!!!~~~ Hmmm.... we shall see....
As we chat, I was getting ready to go out, she was so concern and keep bugging me to go soon as she doesn't want me to be late. We ended our chat and I left...
Another day of nice conversation with her. Gosh... although I've not seen her barely for 1 day only but I'm missing her already. . . . . . . really hope to see her very soon~~
lil piggie,
do u know that I really am missing u very much,
really hoping to see u soon, I've been giving u hints,
but seems like u have no slight idea about me liking u,
that's why I call u my lil piggie.. I guess u'll never know why..
looking for her lost kaleidoscope at 4:26 PM | back to top
Feeling down...
(Mood: Grouchy)
Perhaps too much work and stress coming along feeling the tension and pressure, I was about to break down soon. Had a chat with my buddy and am touched he actually came down all the way to my home to look for me and pulled me out from all the demoralization. After bringing me around to office and closing a rental deal... I'm feeling confident again, getting ready to work hard. After closing the rental deal, it's time for party and we proceed down to ktv pub which is where fate brought me to her... a young lady.. very sweet and pretty.
It's fate:-
1st impression: Very quiet and fierce looking like lioness due to no smile (can eat anyone up anytime (O.O")) ... miss-dao... My friends and I were there to enjoy ourselves and we were singing very happily. As miss-dao is very quiet, had a hard time breaking the ice asking her what songs she sings/can sing normally. Being a humble girl, she tells us that she doesn't sing that well. So, we dedicated the 1st song 一眼瞬间 and she said ok. Wow, not bad... not alot of girls can sing this song well as it's sang by 张惠妹. We sang a few more songs and it's time for 一眼瞬间. Am very amazed and a bit shock when miss-dao sang the song as she's such a petite little girl, is still a teen and it's her 1st song of the day. She really spur up the tempo and we are quite sure that dedicating duet songs will not be a prob in future and therefore dedicated quite a number of duets to sing with her. I sang 千年之恋 with her and she could hit the notes very well. My friends and I were all amazed... Wow, this girl really can sing!
As time passed by, I realise she's a very cheerful girl and has a very sweet smile when she's happy. *mesmerized* After a lil chit-chat here and there, found out that it's her 1st day of work and therefore, my friends and I didn't bully her by making her drink too much. My friends were playing 5-10 with her and seems like she's kinda lucky, always don't get to drink much and always causing others to drink!! Hmmm... lucky girl!!
And now it's time for unplug, it's her 1st time singing unplug too. Sang 爱得正好 with her. Feelin' is very good but somehow, she misses the beat (probably feelin nervous) Kakakakakaka.... Overall is still nice and we managed to complete the song.
Chatting with her colleague, we managed to find out that it was him that create the lyrics for the song 可爱 and this seems to be her favorite song. She was amazed and jumping in joy when she knew about it. All these while, my eyes were on her like the song by 王菲 - Eyes on Me. Observing how happy she is, her smile, her eyes getting smaller and smaller as she smiled happily. I am really very interested to get to know more about her. As time passed by quickly, it's time for the pub to rest for the day and we exchanged contact numbers, waved goodbye and agree to meet up on Wednesday again.
When I reach home, drop her an sms and got a reply back. Started chatting with each other and realise she got a diary of her own. Was curious and therefore browse it for a short period. A nicely create website with beautiful songs... soothing and calming.. Found out that she likes to watch youtube alot. Saw the video about the guy doing the counting of numbers... "Ten, ten, ten, ten, ten..." (^_^) She told me she like the song 虽然我愿意 sang by my buddy as the lyrics has alot of meaning... Alright.. for her sake, I'll go practice that song cos my vocal range can't hit that tone... Damn! But I'll try....
We carry on our chat happily and it's time for her to sleep. The time is 5.50am.
(Mood: Happy!!)
looking for her lost kaleidoscope at 5:50 AM | back to top
Simple
♥DOB: 4/6/1989 & i'm 19 vintage years
♥Major: Apparel Design and Merchandising
♥Mode: Single, Available at your own Risk ( Unable to Commit )
♥Everyday:
sleep at ungodly hours,
wake up at the most exaggerated timing,
rushing to school at the slowest manner,
listening to Goodbye Days & holding a cigarette in hand,
reach sewing room and veron's stare lands on me pek-chekly,
all my classmates smells my strawberry scent,
they turn around and told me they knew i came,
rush my work like fuck & always asking around for help,
always able to finish my work before the last minute of the submission time,
come latest to class but leave earliest,
rush to work and come back at ungodly hours of the night,
online till 5am and the routine goes again,
but i know i can do it when i want to do it=).
i'm not like this in the past.
but i'm not the the past anymore.
♥Biatchality:
like a hybrid of a morning glory and sunflower.
and when i set my heart to so something, i make sure i will do it.
♥Looking:
Friends that learn to hang out together,
take care of each other,
willing to let me cling!
♥Message:
treasure me,
i'll treasure you x2.
♥Loves:
friends and hanging out
colours pink/ white/ brown
photography and cam-whoring
blogging and writing diary
shopping with girls
ktv-ing and standing on the sofa
clubbing and grinding girls
pubbing and looking for someone who can win me dice
PLAYING DICE and laugh at how stupid my opponent is
beaching and wearing colourful bikinis
listening to music like bossa nova jazz
watching korean/ hk/ taiwan drama & jap anime
sleeping at 5am daily
fashion and designing
brown classic handbags
sexy lingerie and translucent nightwear
wearing one-piece babydoll
loves big japanese perms
♥Bread: rochor beancurd
club sandwich
kimchi
green & yellow curry
tomyam soup
steamboat
kinderbreuno
boost chocolate
lemon juice
chef salad
wasabi salmon
cheese fries
next chill
impact peach
below42 passionfruit
absolut peach
hokkien mee lots chilli
猪脚醋
stingray
rojak
♥Cravings: rochor beancurd
kinderbreuno
big perms
samsung omnia
gucci bag
new laptop
estee lauder white linen perfume
you being there like before.
♥Email/MSN/Friendster/Facebook :
Stop trying to peep at my email!!!
i promise i will not walk out on you if you give me a chance...
i will not let u be sad anymore
but will this chance ever been given since you've locked yourself up???
awaiting for piggie to unlock herself and give chance...
to someone who treasures her...
自从认识妳的第一天就喜欢上妳,这是缘分,也是新的开始...
